i shouldn't have bothered

yesterday i finally got back the paper i had worked so long on. this is how class began - the professor mentions that he saw an ex-student in the hallway who stopped and asked him if he was on his way to inflict more pain. that was the professors segway into the discussion of our papers. i won't go into all the details, but he's offering us a rewrite. looks like i'll get to spend some more days working on it.

today is a crazy day. i didn't get much sleep last night. i had a presentation in class this morning and some reading to get done for another. tonight's the first public amnesty international meeting here in waco, so i've been getting things ready for that. after that there's a service for events related to the ONE campaign. in between these things i'll be reading a short story by flannery o'connor for class tomorrow.

i'm not bitter by the minus 5:

when someone wants me to listen, i can't
if i'm supposed to do something, i won't
it's hard to tell if i can get along
but i'm not bitter
i'm not bitter
not at all
just a lot

i walk around the block to avoid you
and that's when I'm in a social mood
it's just my head that hurts me right now
but i'm not bitter
i'm not bitter
not at all
just a lot

it doesn't make much sense to blame you
for the wreck my life's become

bitterness is reserved for stupid people
not for someone intelligent like me
i don't have time to feel that way
i do things backwards when i say
that i'm not bitter
i'm not bitter
i'm not bitter
i'm not bitter
not at all
just a lot